Refreshment

Thank the lord.

After feeling jealous over Kate, once again she has showed me the light.  She sat me down and had a good heart to heart and communicated exactly how she's been feeling, and I told her my hopes and fears, and we worked everything out in a solid 6 hours of laying in bed and talking.  This girl is perfect, and I never thought I would see perfection.

I guess before now, I had never really learned how to communicate with people.  I could type things out on AIM, and talk 1337 smack against n00bs, but never have I been able to hold a real, valid, conversation with a girl.  Especially a pretty girl, and even more so one that is into me.  With Kate, everything seems so easy, and she makes me feel that I'm a pr0 at life. Didn't think it was possible to get Counter-Strike Kill-death ratios like I do and own at life at the same time, but I guess I've always been against the grain.

Neutral

Not sure why, but I get the strange feeling of emptiness building up inside of me.

While love is great, I've grown jealous with Kate.  I know, I'm such a girl (call me sexist), but I don't know what to say.  I haven't written for awhile, because I've been hoping it will go away.  It doesn't seem like that's going to happen, and I don't know what it is about her that makes me so suspicious.  Maybe she just smells different, maybe its the way she acts around me, or maybe it just me being a complete dumbass.

Alright, so maybe its just me being a complete dumbass.  I sure hope that's what it is, I just need to figure out how to get through this..

Aftermath

Wow,

The videogames that thrilled me before, don't seem quite the same anymore after a night like that.  For some reason the curve of that white Xbox 360 controller, doesn't quite match the curve of a woman's hips.  The accomplishment sound I got for getting 10 head-shots in a row, not quite the same sound as... well, you get the picture.

Things are more perfect than ever.  She even meshed the two worlds together and played video games with me.  She MUST be the best girl that has ever graced god's good earth.  Dinner dates, walks outside as the spring air fills the limited spaces between our hands, I'm starting to believe there is a god.

It really doesn't get any better than this.

Second Time Around

Yes, the second lunch date with Ms. Dufay, and things were just starting to heat up.

This time, we went to a fancier restaurant.  You know, the kind of restaurant that requires short bottoms, low cut red vintage dresses?  I was unaware it required that, but apparently to her, thats what it meant.  Maybe TMI, but I needed a change of pants the second I saw her.

I realized I hadn't seen her body much before.  Always covered in sweatpants and sweaters, I hadn't realized how great her skin looked in the light.  She was marvelously toned, and the dress showed off her curves like nothing I had seen before.

God, she was really was beautiful.  I death-gripped her hand the entire time at dinner, until I felt her fingertips on my thigh.

I love College.

We came back to my dorm room, and I spent a little less time with the Macbook, and a little more time exploring.  I'm never going to forget this, the best night of my life.